awas! akhirat di depan..

what is our first impression when looking at this sign?? confused? scared? or maybe we feel nothing. you cannot see this on any road of any part of the earth. i am not saying that we need to ignore this thing, but we have to take a deeper look at this sign..
it is stated there, "awas, akhirat di depan!!!". what can we understand from that??
in this fana' world, we are nothing except for being like a musafir or traveler.. we have our destination to go for, everyones have too.. but the question that might someone asked, "are we prepared enough or are we confident enough to go there???" we are actually too far drifted from the right path. in this modernistic world, we are exposed to many kinds of bad things that might interrupted our mind, and all at once drag us to do maksiat to ALLAH S.W.T. For some people, thinking about akhirat are far from their world of hedonism. and they know nothing about what to do to face the Judgement day.. don't we ever have a thought to consider some part of our mind and time to muhasabah ourselves... every living things in this world must face the death. it's compulsory and that's for sure. it is stated in the Holy Quran, "qullu nafsin zaaiqatul maut"
people might think, "oh.. i am still young and i have to enjoy my day.. death?? that can be put aside first," if such thing ever arouse in our mind, i advice you to recite istighfar for a couple of minutes.. pay all of your attention to God to seek for HIS forgiveness..
i'll give you a situation and take a lesson from it.. there is a man who wanted to enjoy his young life and repent during his old days.. he went to night club almost everyday. there, he consumed some alcoholic stuff, stick around with chicks, etc..etc.. and all of a sudden, he got a heart attack and instantly he died.. could he manage to repent??? could he manage to reach his old days to sit on the sejadah and to pay all of his attention to RABBUL JALIL??? he failed..
are we want to follow his way of life or better one??? i am not asking you to do nothing but to perform solat and fasting every minute of you life.. you just have to balance your duniawi and ukhrawi matters.. if we intended to do any work for ALLAH, the work will ibadah for us..

benda baru berlaku...

i think it is not too late to wish all a happy new year.. hope to be in the year 2010 will be a bless to all mankind, particularly to all spm 2009 candidates whom they will be waiting 4 their spm result to come out..
as the 2009 passed by us, all the memories will, insya ALLAH eternally saved in minds. the memories are very important to man who loves to appreciate his experiences with friends. without such kind of memories, man couldn't move forward. i am not saying that if we want to succeed in our life, we need to look what was in the past. just take a glance to those memories and remember them, so that it can be a motivation to us.. okay, enough with the lecturing part.. (hehe)
the moment of this story was making me realize that i am moving forward towards my future.. there was one night when i was on my way home from penang 4 a family vacation, my phone received an sms from akmal(ASiS). he was asking me whether i got the khazanah scholarship or not.. how on earth would i know.. i was offline 4 about a week. then, i asked him the same question he asked me.. he said that he got the scholarship.. he told me check out my email.. though i was in the car that time, i knew that my gadget could help me..MY PHONE.. i checked it out. i was totally dumbfounded to know that i was chosen to attend the khazanah nasional scholarship interview.. my heart shouted out loudly.. alhamdulillah.. ALLAH still give HIS giving tough i had done so many things that i am not supposed to do.. and currently, i am working on it... i am preparing for my interview. who knows i might be the one of the few selected scholars.. my head is playing with some of common questions that might be asked.. so i prepare as much as i can to face the interviewers.. i want to tell the world that i can grab this opportunity in my life.. i beg the doa from all people around me..
besides the important interview, i am now also preparing for my driving license test. before this, i had attended the 5-hour course in segambut. it was sincerely boring at the first 10 minutes.. but, when it came to the teacher, it was totally fun.. though he was quite strict, but i used to it.. the course was over in a very short time. i couldn't feel that course was 5 hours.. it was like 2 hours or what..
i thanked to ALLAH 4 giving me such a indefinite-value giving.. alhamdulillah..

sabar je la..

ok... kita sambung citer post yg sebelum ni k...
at the time i was facing my two trials, i was tested with a common cold.. i still remembered when my body was feeling very bad. at that very moment, the h1n1 influenza was spreading all over the world. and i was suspecting myself to be infected by that particular disease. i was so worried. only Allah knows how badly my feeling was. until up to a moment, i was thinking of death and i couldn't meet my family anymore. it was very bad at the time. i tried to calm down myself but futile. the warm of my forehead, even my entire body was worsening. but i know, Allah knew what had happened to me.. that night, ust khir (warden) came into the surau and made an announcement. "for those who are not feeling well, please proceed to warden's office now," Allah had saved me.
i went to the warden's office and i waited for a van to take me (actually there were few students also worried about their health) to HUKM. i had to obey the procedures of the hospital that wanted us, especially the pesakit luar to fill in some forms, which i think i took time for us to have our consultation. as all know, the environment at general hospital, particularly at night was very busy.. with patients here and there, it made my head going to explode, suited to me condition at that time.. waiting for my turn to meet the doctor was another 'world' problem 4 me.. what the heaven would i do in waiting 4 my turn.. it was ages men!!! i recited istighfar and tried to have patient in mine..
i met the doctor after AN HOUR of waiting.. i was declared as okay by her.. i proceeded to the exit as i saw my parent outside the room.. Allah, thank you 4 giving me such a full-of-love parent in this world.. we were calming each other and not worrying 4 my condition.. the left after about half an hour later..
as i reached school, we were asked to stay at a dorm...or in the other word, WE WERE QUARANTINED... God!!! i am going to take my trial exam bout less than 72 hours yet.. o Allah, please grant me with patient... how i am going to sit for my trial if i was quarantined in a dorm, without any contact with outside world.. without books.. fuhh!!! it was really a big test 4 me.. but i redha with what HE had planned 4 me... HE knows everything.. there should be hikmah 4 what HE planned 4 all mankinds... i juz tawakal and redha..

kemunculan semula

setelah lama menyepi di balik dunia spm, kini epit kembali aktif di alam maya ini... bukan apa epit sibuk ngan spm lagi... nak stadi lagi...

sebenarnya, banyak benda nak crite ni.. tapi tak tau mane satu nak mule.. camni la.. kita start dari awal ke...

first, i juz wanna set my blog as my site where i can tell everybody bout my day and my life.. so, as a blog which i think maybe not many people will read mine, i juz wanna this be as my diary... but not too detail.. i will tell bout my daily life, but not including any secrets that may be used by irresponsible parties for any inappropriate reasons... so, juz enjoy my stories (if they so enjoyable).

next, i wanna tell everybody that i have my own site in myspace... so, 4 anybody who interested in knowing me by photos or maybe wanna know who r my friends, juz add me at www.myspace.com/epit92

since my last post i didn't update my blog, so, i'll tell u what had happened to me during that period of time... if i've not mistaken, my last post was in august.. that time, i was facing my 2 big trials... sbp trial and jpwp trial.. there was a moment when i felt so stressed preparing 4 that trials... it's still ok if the trials were separated by a period of time.. the problem here was the trials were continuously done 4 bout a MONTH.. i was like "man, what i'm going to do??? am i well-prepared for the moment???" that was what frolicking in my head.. juz imagine that u hv to prepare 4 the exams, and at the same time u hv 2 carry a few responsibilities on your shoulders.. but i know that, ALLAH will help people who r patient 4 any ordeal they faced.. i knew that ALLAH will not test human 4 what human could not bear off.. i tried to cool down... i remembered what teachers said, "u should study hard but smartly..." i followed her advices and at the same time i prayed to ALLAH to grant me patient so that i can face this ordeal without forgetting HIM....

and my efforts paid off.. for the first trial, which was the sbp trial, i managed to get 8a's 1b and 1c... actually, i didn't satisfy with what i got.. but when think deeply, the subject that that i scored c was bio... and the papers were very tough... my teachers said like that so.. plus, at that time, the h1n1 flu was pandemically spread.. i was one of the victim... not the victim of the flu, juz cold and common flu.. nothing to worry about.. so, this could one the main reason why my result dropped...

but, can't let the sbp trial result let me down... i pushed some extra efforts on 2nd trial.. the papers were quite tougher than the sbp's... but i managed to get 10a's.... and started from that... i turned a new leaf, looking forward to the spm exam... which may lead me to my future...

singgah jap

lamanya dah tak masuk blog sendiri... i was so busy by this time.. yalah, i have 2 face 2 trial.. 4 weeks in a row.. mana tak botak kepala aku.

i have to maintain my results or to get better 4 scholarships.. i damn need that. i am not that choosy in applying scholarships... asal dapat jadilah.. what is the most important is that i wanna fly abroad. to further my study (plus melancong-ing, have fun, flirting.. it makes sense, but i am not that type of person).. i just got back from my kampong in melaka.. met all my relatives.. i had a good-lenghty conversation with abg irul, a friend of my uncle... he is 25 (to be) on this saturday.. fell on the same day of my birth date... of course, not the year..

we talked on life after spm... i paid my fullest attention (with "desire" to know)... actually it is quite hard to achieve ones ambition. they need to sacrifice a lot of things along the journey.. fuhh!!

o!!! before i 4get, i wanna wish selamat menyambut ramadhan al-mubarak to all hope this ramadhan will grant us more n more pahala from HIM.. a week in ramadhan at house is quite tough 4 me as i had forbid myself from sneaking in the kitchen.. hehehehe.. i wont do that.

emmm.. actually i have go back to my hostel today... i mean after this.. so to all my "fans"... my for my comeback..

before that, my last words (macam nak mati plak rasenya)..

JAGA IMAN, JAGA AKHLAK, JAGA HATI.... PASTIKAN SEMUA SIHAT N KUAT...